sorry...

so, for those who read it sorry.
for those who didnt, lets just say my last post was slightly more than emo.
i have deleted it now.
sorry.

Everything I’m Not (dreaming of)

it is rather frustrating. i mean make up your mind. you have no idea how much you are hurting me. it all just gets too much some times, i mean, i love you. sometimes i wish you would understand just how much.  i can’t keep making excuses for you inside my head, one day i will just walk away from him and leave it all behind. i wish everything was so much easier. life would be simple, life would be sweet.

 

“She will chase you around for a while; but there is going to be a day when she is going to stop running in circles around you. She’s gonna get over you and at that very moment you are going to wish that you had let her catch you.”

alicia.x

As Skanky legs would put it… Upsetting!

today was an okay day, that is until lunch time. I was supposed to go home for community service, but mum was running late so i decided to go back into LP. i was frantically looking around for skanky legs and then found her calling my name over the rails upstairs. i went up there only to discover that there were 3 girls smoking in the upstairs bathroom.

now, if you don’t know me, i hate smoking, it is the most disgusting habit next to drugs that anyone could have. anyways, me and skanky legs went downstairs and into the other bathroom when two of the three smoking girls ran into it. we walked out and got accused of being the ones that were smoking. i got so pissed off! eventually the teacher found out that it was them and i left. i don’t try to sound mean here but i hope that they get in trouble for it because short of cancer, it is the only way that they are going to learn.

on a nicer note, its the first day of march, yay.

quote for today…

ummmmm…

oh, here is one:

‘we have so may masks that we put on everyday that we realise we no longer know which one is real.’

alicia.x

So Tired

So last night i had my friends birthday party, i had so much fun and so did my bff skanky legs(btw-that’s a nickname if you haven’t already guessed lol). i also got a little heartbroken afterwards, but that’s for Jodie and skanky leg’s eyes and ears only, not the public. :(

anyways the party was good. today though, i almost broke down in front of my sister, just the stress of four weeks worth of everything came crashing down at once, school; family; friends; calisthenics; HIM. i just couldn’t help it. it was like a trigger, let’s just say my sister wont ever lose my laptop charger again. poor vicki.

I literally just finished my english assignment that is due period 1 tomorrow, whoops. it’s the first assignment all year that i have left to the last minute, and its only because i forgot about it on account of my being pushed into a wall that same night. haha.

speaking of, my wrist feels so much better i went almost all night last night without my bandage, which i only put on because my wrist needed the support. i think i might actually be able to write with my correct hand tomorrow :) haha

so… my quote for today is one that i just found about being you(i know, pretty cliché)

‘i want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart is broken, and the one that could always brighten your day even if she couldn't brighten her own."’

bye-bye

alicia.x

hello world.

finding the first words is difficult, for everything. starting a blog, a story, a relationship, a job. we just have to work hard an eventually they become clear, more often than not, just in time. that is what just happened to me when, out of sincere boredom, i began this blog.

my life isn’t anything worth reading about, however, since i am bored, i will elaborate. my name is alicia and i live in mildy. i have two years of school left (thank-god) before i hope to go to uni to study teaching, although lately i have been rethinking being a paediatrician, an old ambition of mine. i love to shop, love my friends(especially skanky legs!!!! hahaha) and reading.

i tend to overreact to things which isn’t something i can help, it just who i am, and i am sorry if i have ever done anything to make you feel hurt or betrayed. i know how it feels. i have also been told that i am slightly depressed, also a result of the things i have been hurt by, probably due to my overreaction to something. i wish it would all just go away and i could be happy. really happy.

i guess i should just be content with what i have, which is a lot, and i am not complaining about what i have. i just want a little more. i found this quote today:

“don’t waste your life.

no one chooses mediocracy but many settle for it.”

just some food for thought.

alicia.x